I went away to college and I lost myself. In high school I moved twice. I was at my last high school for 2 years and I felt that I had finally found myself. I had leveled out and learned a lot of new things about myself. My likes and dislikes, my favorite things to do, my real friends. Then it came time to move again to college and start all over again, this time in a different state with people very different from myself.
While I reflect back on this year, I start to think that I want to be more like the person I was in high school. I tried to focus too much on what new likes I would have and I didn't feel comfortable in my skin in college. I felt that I wasn't as happy or energetic in college. Maybe it's because I wasn't into my groove and because I had met new failures with every increasing difficulty of classes but that is no excuse. Instead of focusing so much on how I always feel, I think that it's time for me to go back to the way I was in high school. I cared more for other people's well-being and I really just felt that I meant more to other people. This year I plan to focus more on other people because it's what makes me happy and energetic. It's the thing that helps me to feel accomplished and as if I have a purpose. Maybe it's important to learn about yourself, but personally I like to learn about myself through others.
While I reflect back on this year, I start to think that I want to be more like the person I was in high school. I tried to focus too much on what new likes I would have and I didn't feel comfortable in my skin in college. I felt that I wasn't as happy or energetic in college. Maybe it's because I wasn't into my groove and because I had met new failures with every increasing difficulty of classes but that is no excuse. Instead of focusing so much on how I always feel, I think that it's time for me to go back to the way I was in high school. I cared more for other people's well-being and I really just felt that I meant more to other people. This year I plan to focus more on other people because it's what makes me happy and energetic. It's the thing that helps me to feel accomplished and as if I have a purpose. Maybe it's important to learn about yourself, but personally I like to learn about myself through others.